Flicker

I find myself constantly waiting for someone

Or something to come and save me

Craving a miracle to eliminate the dark

I’ve been learning that such a light,

Exist within me & that the light itself,

Is me. I have trouble with drowning out

The noise of my own mind. Especially as

Anxiety tiptoes its way along my spine.

It’s kind of beautiful the way I have survived.

How I trotting through darkness despite

Nothing more than to be consumed by it.

I try not to think of my journey as hard

For I know someone has it harder,

I try not to think of my journey as far

For I know someone else’s if farther.

Forgive myself for my wrongdoings

Understand that I am fighting

and some days the battles feel like war

As I reach for the white flag, I remember

Who and what I’m fighting for, I think

Of becoming the change I wish to see

And that suddenly gives me the strength to

To fight another day. My light may flicker.

But I don’t think I’ll ever actually let it go out.